My Inner Self

I live in a world of desires and unending fires....
Is it my fate or I can actually cut through these wires.....?

There is something inside me which makes me feel the feelings...
I do both the work.... the burns and the healings

Sometimes the door of my world opens up
Those delicate moments make me vulnerable...
I tend to be alone as the situation is unstable

It makes me think sometimes
Is that world also round ?
Does it also has a sky and a ground ?

Because some day I would love to stretch my arms and fly
Then I wonder who will save me from the eagles and lightnings
Am I a freak, or am I just too weak....

But then, who should I let into this world of mine
Do I get only one chance or is there scope for mistakes ?
Is it possible to keep eating the wrong cakes ?

When is eventually a destruction of this world destined?
Would that create a new me.. or would be a just a new picture pinned ?

Does the real self changes ever?
or is it just too clever !!
to fool us and create illusions
and nothing changes with the new fusions....

Digital ज़िन्दगी

ज़िन्दगी से कभी कभी मैं बातें करता हूँ ......
कभी कभी अपने आप से भी मैं युहीं डरता हूँ ....
कल रात जब मैंने पुछा ज़िन्दगी से , की कैसा महसूस होता है तुम्हें
जवाब काफी अजीब था ...... उसने कहा - Digital ........

मैं कुछ समझ नहीं पाया , और थोडा सा घबराया
तब हिम्मत जुटा कर मैंने फिर से सवाल उठाया .....
ज़िन्दगी ने कहा , मेरा हर एक पहलु अब technical हो गया है
ख़ुशी की खबर को चिटठी से चुरा कर email ले गया है
अपनों की आवाजें अब केवल फ़ोन पर या chat पर ही सुनायी देती हैं
अब तो अपनी परछाई भी दुहाई देती है..............................

दिन का सबसे ज्यादा वक़्त कंप्यूटर को समर्पित हो गया है
इंसान उन्नति की होड़ में कहीं खो सा गया है
हर काम मशीन से होता है यहाँ
कभी कोई चैन से सोता है कहाँ ............!!!!

हर व्यक्तित्व एक internet profile का नकाब पहने हुआ है
हर बच्चा competition और पढाई से सहमे हुआ है
माँ-बाप का फ़र्ज़ भी अब कोई और निभाता है
बच्चा चलना शुरू करते ही play -school चला जाता है.....!

हम जब छोटे थे तो खेलना-कूदना बच्चों का गहना था
अब तो email , chatting , computer -games और play -station का ज़माना है
पर क्यूँ हम इंसान को आत्म-निर्भरता से दूर लिए जा रहे हैं
अपाहिज होने के ख्वाब मुझे क्यूँ आ रहे हैं........

सबसे अज़ीज़ कभी सिर्फ हम-सफ़र होता था
सबसे कम वक़्त अब हम-सफ़र के साथ ही बिता पाते हैं...
पर मोबाइल फ़ोन के बजते ही लोग दौड़े चले जाते हैं.....

ज़िन्दगी ने थरथराते लफ़्ज़ों में कहा, मेरे जाने का वक़्त अब हो गया है....
इंसान की भावनाएं और उसके होने का स्वरुप धुन्दले से और धुन्दला हो गया है...
Digital होने का अर्थ अब शायद तेरे ज़ेहन में भी उतर सा गया है .......!!!!!!
नया चश्मा पत्थर की शिगाफों से निकल न पाया..................
ज़माना करवट बदल के भी करवट बदल न पाया...................

Kabhi Main Chala Tha.....

Kabhi na kabhi to main chala tha....
jaane kab that vo lamhaa jab main khud se mila tha
hazaaron rang hain zindagi ke... hazaaron pehlu... hazaaron pal...
koi kabhi kahin.... humein bhi mila tha...
chalte chalte jaane kahan aa gaye... kuch pal choote kuch saath aa gaye
kabhi na kabhi to main chala tha....

acche bure, nasamajh-samajhdar, chalak-bhole.....
har tarah ke logon se main bhi mila tha
kabhi na kabhi to main chala tha...

saalon ki zindagi ko samajhne chala tha...
khwab to sabhi dekhte hain..... unhein poora karne sabki tarah
main bhi chala tha... mushkilon se kabhi kabhi main bhi dara tha.....

dorahon pe pahuch kar... doston se bichhad kar...
khud ko dhoondte hue... tinke samet-te hue.. mann mein josh bhara tha...
har rah mein kisi tarah main bhi chala tha....

kya zindagi hai... kya log kehte hain... inse farq mujhe bhi pada tha...
insaano ki bheed mein kuch sachhe dost kabhi kabhi yuhin mil jaate hain
kabhi kabhi vo saath rehte hain.... kabhi kadmo ke nishaan ban jate hain...

Koi aake kehde mujhe... sab kuch to hai ek dhoke jaisa...
sach to hai mere mann mein chupa... use dhoond lun to dekhun zara
raaste mere sahi the... ya galat raaston pe bhi main chala tha....

kabhi koi dil ke kareeb aaya tha... par humne dil ko bahut samjhaya tha..
Us dorahe ka raaz main na samajh paya tha...
kaun jaane har faisla maine hi liya... kuch faisle na le kar bhi
pyaar bhara dil humne dukhaya tha.....

Jab main khud se mil paya.... bahut si baatein samajh paya....
par jo beet chuka hai us pal ko nahi chura paya...
sabse gehra sach jo main samajh paya.... is zindagi ko koi na samajh paya
har waqt sang rehta hai koi saya...
chalte chalo chalte chalo.... har ek lamha to koi bhi na jeet paya
Jeet jaane par bhi ... kabhi kabhi main samajh na paya tha...
kabhi na kabhi main khud se mila tha.....
kahin na kahin main to chala tha.......

Pedestrian

Road ahead is never straight but we think it is...
there are always some turns
sometimes the road just bends downwards and things become easier
sometimes the road curves upwards and things become difficult

when the road splits into two...
those are the most difficult points..

The split is never between right and wrong is what I believe
its just the choice which determines the forthcoming twists and turns

We always get chances to amend and anticipate the coming bend....
one who seizes the opportunity emerges victorious
captures his moments and the sun of his life is always glorious...

There is no light on this road and its always dark ahead
Each of us is blessed with a ray of hope and belief
but not everyone is able to light it to the fullest...

Sometimes I think, Is there any end to this road or it just goes on
but then the question pops up, if there is an end then what would be the dawn

A new road waiting for me or is it the end of the journey of life
If its the end, then what's the difference as everyone is bound to reach the end?
I try to justify this with something I believe
Its always the struggle and the quest that matters

what you get or achieve is something you always knew
but people who enjoy the journey are very few

Are you among those ones.....???????

Shayari...!

Saath chalne ke liye zaroori nahi hai saath hona......
par agar palat kar dekhne se ek hi parchayee dikhayi de to kya samjhein..?
kyunki kehte hain museebat mein to apni parchayee bhi saath chhod jaati hai...

Apne dil ko behlane ke liye .... tasallee pahuchane ke liye...
aur apne yakeen par sawaal na uthane ki wajah se hi
to ye yaadein kabhi kabhi chali aati hain.......

My Lazy Sunday

I love my lazy Sundays… in every possible ways…
What it brings is peace… makes me feel like a beach in Greece
No work …no play…. Its my lazzziesst day….

Watching movies, tv and sleeping in the afternoon
It’s like an excellent movie…..”coming soon”

Talking to friends, talking to family… makes me feel connected
Sunday always makes me feel resurrected….!

My stressful week and going out on Saturdays…
When I am tired and broken, Sunday smiles with arms wide open….

Every week I plan and plan to organize on Sunday….
But destinations always seem far and I love sleeping on the way

Sleeping, waking up… eating and again sleeping….!
Ohh today is not Sunday and that makes me weeping 

It’s the one seventh part of my life which I love from the bottom of my heart…..
It’s sad that it comes every week but cruel Monday makes it depart

It silently helps me recover from my hangover sometimes
By slowly pushing and pushing my morning rhymes…..

Oh my dear Sunday….!! Oh my lazy Sunday..!
I always wish I could be with you forever some day…………

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It can heavily pour, petrol can only drizzle….

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Its super cleaner, and when it comes to money it’s a little meaner

Easier to refine makes the engine shine….

Creates much less soot and contains less sulfur

“Save Energy” can be used as the new Metaphor….

Saves you from the changing “plugs & leads” and maintenance depression

being smarter and efficient, it uses air compression……

Economical, powerful and higher torque…

Giving you more reasons to love your pork….

It would make you feel divine…..

Switch to the diesel engine, gift your car with a new lifeline…!
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A call to all the Indians to stop the bloodshed in Syria

A call to all the Indians to stop the bloodshed in Syria

Syria is undergoing a crisis and the things happening there are seriously against the basic rights of any human being – “Right to live”
Innocent people in Syria tried to do peaceful protests against the President to force him step down to save their country and countrymen. But power is the feeling which every human enjoys, but it mostly destroys. The protests have been there for 4 months now and the response of the authorities has been cruel and severe towards people.

According to Amnesty International’s research, the human rights violations committed by the Syrian security forces and army since mass protests began in mid-March include unlawful killings and torture. They appear to have been committed as part of a widespread - as well as systematic - attack on the civilian population and, in some cases, to amount to crimes against humanity.

To counter this and to ease the situation, Amnesty International has called on the UN Security Council to refer the situation in Syria to the International Criminal Court (ICC), to impose an arms embargo and to freeze the assets abroad of the Syrian President and his senior associates.

But till now the UN Security Council has been silent on Syria – failing to take action to help protect peaceful dissent in the country.

Some members of the Council have decided to solve the situation and have introduced a resolution on Syria which could be a first step towards a referral to the ICC. However, voting on the resolution is currently blocked by six other members. We believe that, three of those six, Brazil, South Africa and India, could be persuaded to change their position with sufficient international pressure.

India aspires to become permanent member of the UN Security Council which would be for the benefit of our country and our people and, as such, I believe that we have an increasing responsibility to try to bring an end to the violent crackdown in Syria. Please sign this petition to help ensure that Brazil, South Africa and specially India do not shy away from their responsibilities. As an Indian we need to put pressure on our government to change its position. Please be a part of it and do something for the country. This could be your few chances to do something for the common good.

Sign here to let the government hear your voice.

There is always light at the other end of the tunnel......

There is always light at the other end of the tunnel……
Problems in life…. A very sharp knife…
Most people think.. it’s a crappy life

Deep emotions… Extreme frustration
But still superficial consideration…

Responsibilities, confusion, obligations…
Are all life’s ramifications…

There is no one who is happy from the core…
Some have less problems and some have more…

Some blame others some blame themselves
But very few go deeper into their mind’s shelves

Is there a way…. That all the problems go away…
I still await that kind of a day…….

As that would make me feel alive…..!!!!
Some of us give up.. some of us battle…
But there are people like me who always believe….
There is always light at the other end of the tunnel…
It’s just the walk.. which is hard to survive……!!!!!

The First term of my MBA......

Run Run Run….. for the 8:30 class…! With just a water of glass….. !
breakfast extinct from my life..! MBA became my newly wedded wife…..!
young boy trying to make a mark...! but class participation was not an easy shark…!
Less sleep more work is the MBA’s welcome drink..! unsuccessful to make my sleeping hours shrink :P
One and half hours of each class seemed like a decade……! after a few days of the MBA's intemperate raid….!
Battle to be awake all the time..! was my new favorite rhyme……!
Group work was fun..! but classroom looked like a cream-less bun….!
Some of the lessons were interesting & conceptual..!! Others seemed unending & perpetual…..!
Assignments started pouring in...! the study box became my nearest kin…..!
Trip to rome was the greatest gift..!! And it was quite swift….!
Calcetto, aperitivo, wine and friends..! were my life’s latest trends……….!
Marketing, Strategy and Finance..! always made me go into a trance……!
The coffee machine takes years to blend..! I was always waiting for the classes to end….!
The schedule was packed with studies, assignments and presentations..!
But parties were always the MBA’s ramifications…….!
MBA is fun MBA is fun MBA is fun………..! I assure you no intended Pun :)

The onset of the MBA Journey.....

I have put my first foot across the doors of my MBA journey and things seem to be pretty new and different for me. It is the first time I am outside my own country and I feel lost sometimes as it’s difficult to survive in a European country like Italy without having a basic knowledge of their language. I know some basic Italian and am able to manage my stuff somehow.

Getting into an international b-school with a globally renowned program was like a dream come true for me and I came with the intention to extract as much knowledge I can and to transform myself into an improved person both on a personal and professional front. I got admits from two colleges - one from Simon school of Management (Rochester, NY) and the other was SDA Bocconi school of management (Milan, Italy). I had a tough choice to make, but finally after doing some analysis I chose SDA Bocconi over Simon.

The program here is a one year program including internship which makes the schedule quite tough and it’s really hard to cope up. Time is really flying by and I need to catch up as I spent my initial days just roaming around, meeting people and trying to adjust into the new city - fixing my house, my stuff etc. Now I really feel the need to pull up my socks and get into the real world of business. Every other day we have some company presentations and it almost takes up the whole day leaving a very little time to study. The main thing I believe is to prioritize things and make your schedule to be in time for things and not to miss out the important ones. One good thing about the place is that people here are very friendly and by saying this it reminds of a very sweet incident - One fine morning it was raining and I was getting late for school and I dint have an umbrella, so I decided to borrow it from the neighbor.... and in the evening there was a nice new umbrella with a chit on which it was written "A small gift from a sweet old lady who stays next door".... and I felt overwhelmed.......!

Most of the people in class look to be pretty much strong in terms of their experience and abilities, some are bankers, some are consultants...................................... But along with there are many fun people. One more great thing to mention here is the "Apertivo". It’s sort of a party where you just need to pay for the drinks and you get free food.... cool..!!! And every other day we have an apertivo for something or the other and its great fun. About the clubs there are many fun clubs like the Wine club who are most of the times busy in exotic Wine tasting Events, the Motor Club have great events like “the Ferrari driving experience”, “visit to the Maserati factory” etc. I joined the Management Consulting Club with a dream of getting into the consulting industry.

First term really went great and it was the time when everyone was trying to know people, making new friends, feeling the new MBA experience. People were divided into study groups and every group was having group lunches to be comfortable with each other and trying to know each other more than others because those were the people with whom we had to work with. Four of us moved into a really nice apartment in Milan and I loved the apartment, the only thing was that we had to share rooms.

Reaching to the morning 8:30 class was little bit of a trouble to me but I could somehow manage to reach there with my sleepy eyes and hastily dressed appearance. I did not attend the pre courses, so it was difficult for me to break into the groups of people which were already formed from the pre courses. But I had to know new people, new cultures and understand them. This was first time in my life when I came out of India and I was desperate to know about new countries about new people.

There were already many Indians in the class, 13 out of a class of 98 and it was not so difficult to make friends with the Indians though. I already had some because I almost talked to everybody over the phone or chat before coming here. I got some new friends and it was a nice experience for me. Although Milan turned out to be little disappointing as I had a fantastic image of the city in my mind, but it sometimes happens. When we expect a lot from anything, it always turns out to be a disappointment. That is mainly because we raise the bar of our expectations too high. The food was not as new to me as I knew about the Italian food from before but it was really different from what I tried before in India.

I was a little nervous in the beginning as almost all the people including the Indians were all like, they have travelled to different countries and all were like international people and I somehow felt little inferior when I compared myself with the others. But on the contrary it even gave me a feeling of an achiever of being there even though not so high in experience and other things. Honestly speaking I was proud of myself being there. We started going out meeting people, going to parties and always thinking about how to make friends with people from other countries. I was always trying to take the first step to get into the groups, trying to talk to people and things like that. I was worried about class participation, studying hard, attending all the classes and try to get most out of my MBA experience. This was the onset of the new experience of my life and the initial few days of my SDA Bocconi MBA experience…………..

My Goodbye Email at Onmobile Global Ltd.

Finally the time has come to say good bye to the Onmobile life
take all the learning and welcoming the new stage of life

good times, bad times, best times, worst times
its really hard to forget all the personal and professional rhymes.....

I entered the new job with passion coupled with apprehension
but the ambience at Onmobile relieved all the tension

listening to music and going outside with friends for tea & coke
was the perfect painkiller for the work pressure and deliverables' stroke......

complicated KPIs, KRAs, JIRA and appraisal structure
always made a perfect conjuncture

last minute changes and the bulk of deliverables kept work always on the fullest flow
can't avoid, can't delay, can't look for help as the promotions should always go!

never buckling under pressure and coordination are the qualities I instilled
like a raw chicken which has now been grilled......

Working in the team called business intelligence
It was a boon to my marketing knowledge and business sense

response & revenue report convulsions cladded with the review meetings
had a unique resemblance to the perdition greetings......!!

AMs, PMs and BMs always troubled with target and sales
"Mailbox Full" and "Birthday" were always the morning mails

less leaves, bad food and survival on maggi or burger with a shake
"Working from home" proved to be the best escape

intelligent promotions and perplexed analysis...
time to go home felt like a bliss..!!

At Onmobile, Curve of knowledge and experience takes a huge upturn
but the enablers are pro-activeness and willingness to learn...!!

With the enriching experience and memories in my heart
I feel sad as its time to depart
as it's time for me to put new things in my cart
but the experience at Onmobile has become an inseparable part.....!!!!

Endless Mind

It’s all in the mind…. heard this phrase recently in a movie…!

Sounds very interesting and questions the very natural fact.

Is it all in the mind that we all need to unwind….

There are always some decisions, which we take on the spur of a moment

Most of the times those are the best ones

So do they come from our heart or is it always the mind…!

Some people say that thinking and planning too much about anything is bad

It always kills the fun and makes your life lag behind…!

Why do we think so much and why do we plan….

Planning makes sense sometimes but not for personal things

Plan and implement at work, but when you off leave the planning behind..!

We plan to avoid the hick-ups & loss of time….

But that’s the fun when taking a break, when you don’t know what’s next…

There is no fun when your mind always knows the context…….

How deep is one’s mind, is it mechanical, when it comes to emotions does it turn blind….?

We control our mind or is it the vice-versa, is there a role for the heart?

Or is it just like any other body part…….

There are stories about the mind, specially the sub-conscious part…

Experts say not everybody can use the sub-conscious part, it’s an art….

Which very few can do and there is huge power to be unlocked…

An immense source which can ease your life, but it’s blocked….!!

Will it really ease your life or complicate things more….

Is really a myth and there is much more….

Human mind can do wonders is what everybody says…

Saying doesn’t help, we need to know the ways….

I always think of doing something great

But nothing of that sort has ever come to my plate…. L

I believe I need to search within myself……

KHUSHI

Ae khushi ab to lag jaa gale……

Sahi rah pe to na the hum hamesha chale….. par kaun janta hai ???

Kaunsi rah sahi hai aur kaun si galat, yahi to sawaal hai....

Har waqt aaj mein jeene ki koshish karte rahe…. Par kaun jaanta hai ??

Vo aaj mein jeena aane waale kal ke liye tha, ya ye sirf mera khayaal hai…

Dil ki gehraiyon mein hamesha sahi dhoondne ki koshish karte rahe….

Par kaun jaanta hai ???, ktina gehra hai ye dil aur kahan tak jaana hai…..

Bahut se log zindagi mein aaye, kuch thaire aur kuch chale gaye….

Kabhi aawaz lagane ka khayaal aaya par hum sochte hi reh gaye….

Akelapan kabhi accha lagne laga to hum usmein kho se gaye…..

Par kabhi lagne laga ki ye dost kuch achha nahi hai….

Par kaun jaanta hai, hum to bas apne mann ki karte chale gaye….

Sachi khushi kise kehte hain, ye shayad hum kabhi samajh hi nahi paaye

Isiliye jhooti khushiyon ko bhi hum hamesha sachha hi maante chale gaye….

Bahut se sawaal hain par ek jawaab to jaanta hun…..

Vo khushi sachi khushi nahi jab talak aankh se aansun na nikale…

Isliye hum hamesha apna carvan sachhi khushi ki talaash mein chalaate chale gaye………….!!

Kuch Shabd Dil Se.....

zindagi ki kitaab mein kuch shabd dhundla se jaate hain

chah kar bhi hum unhein padh nahi paate hain......

ye raasta zindagi ka bahut bahut lamba aur anjaana sa lagta hai

fir bhi har koi humein jaana pehchana sa lagta hai...

fir kyun sirf kisi kisi ki khushi mein khushi mehsoos hoti hai

aur aise logo ki zindagi mein bahut kami mehsoos hoti hai...

na jaane kyun main sabko khush karna chahta hun....

is zindagi ka matlab samajhna chahta hun...

har dard mein rahat chahta hun....

us khuda ko mehsoos karna chahta hun....

chalte hue rah mein mushkilein bhi aati hain

tab logo ki kahi hui baatein yaad aati hain

mushkilon ka saamna karna aasan nahi hai

par jo mushkilon se dar jaye vo sachha insaan nahi hai

andhera kabhi kabhi bahut darata hai...

par kabhi kabhi yun hi akelepan mein dost ban jaata hai...

kuch kar dikhaane ki chah bahut baar mann mein aati hai...

par hamesha dil ko chu kar hi laut jaati hai...

mere khwaab kabhi poore honge ya nahi ye main nahi jaanta

ya shayad khwaab bhi zindagi ke saath badal jaate hain....

har ghadi ek dost ki talaash rehti hai...

par vo samne bhi ho to hum nahi pehchaan paate hain...

dil aur dimaag kabhi ek si baat nahi batate hain..

kitni bhi koshish kar lo par ye bahut satate hain...

kisi aur ko kya samajhne ki koshish karein zindagi mein...

khud ko smajah paate to vo saare shabd padh paate...

jo zindagi ki kitaab mein dhundla se jaate hain......................

Illusion...!!

Once I saw a person... who was exactly like me ...!!!

I asked him what's his name? he replied... that's a twist

but how can you be so similar...

that's your illusion because I don't exist..!!

then I asked, what brings you here?

to bring your life into top gear

but do I really need you...

he stood silently with a smile

waiting for a while

and then the silence broke

which almost gave me a choke...!!!

you have not done good things in your life...

I am here to avoid your sad demise..

You can ask me whatever you want

You can take help from me in any way

You can cry on my shoulders if you need

You can laugh with me when you are sad

You can share your feelings when you are glad

You are moving into the darkness, unaware of where its leading..

its hurting you and your soul is bleeding...

See the world not how it looks, but how your heart feels

follow your heart and take the necessary turns

only that will help you to heal the burns

go out in the open, and feel the power which the almighty has vested in all

it will take long time for you....

because your soul is crippled and it has to crawl...

don't expect things to occur too fast.. just like a blast

don't be lost..

you have to be carefull as the world is too vast...

go my son... its never too late..

don't accept things believing its your fate

conquer the world which is hidden in your heart...

and that will be your perfect start...!!!

I finally asked, are you here to give me a rebirth..

He smiled again, "I am your angel on this earth"

Modern culture

Every morning when I take my first step out..

wondering why do people shout...

smartly dressed, in a hurry, and a tag is the usual picture

they don't even have time to throw a good gesture..

multi nationals is where they work..

with handsome salary and lot of perks

life is busy.. life is fast...

very soon people even forget about the blast..

I feel its monotonous and I want to depart..

but I have too become an inseperable part...

people say we are developing... we are growing..

but I say we are just following...

we are improving in quality

but what is needed is originality..

now thats something which we indian's really lack..

like a beautiful glass with a crack..

work work and work is the new culture

on top of that we cripple our minds with shares and debenture

very rare are those people who like what they pursue

everyone knows this fact at heart, but nobody dares to be true

humanity is waning and the colors are fading

people are more worried about their grading

apprehension and fear leads only to descent

leave the future and captivate the present

"carpe diem" should be the motto of life

which will make you happy and bring the real you to life

The mystery of dreams..!!

I always wonder about my dreams and the associated weird themes

I see things which really do not exist

is there a significance ? God throw some light and hold my wirst

uncomplicate the cobwebs , let me open my fists.

someone somebody will bring the light of fortune

will it happen soon? or will it be the end

struggle and pain in life make us bend, is there any way to amend

I see people, I see darkness, I see pain

Why not happiness ? even if I try.. its all in vain

The unconscious mind is the greatest explorer

but the conscious makes us to forget the expedition

I sometimes try to recollect, but the doubt remains

is this correct? and I have nobody to explain

apprehension and fear is sitting down at the base

happiness and optimism is only the superficial phase

A hole at the bottom will do the trick

it will drain out the bad and sick

To make that hole, I have to delve down deeper and deeper

at this moment I wish I was a creeper

people say that dreams are unfulfilled desires

but its hard to straigthen those strangled wires

I beleive dreams are the windows of the inner house

always giving you the opportuinities to browse

differnt parts of your life and the soul

hence to understand your ultimate goal.

A day will come when I will understand

and that will give me a reason to rise and stand.

A sad state of mind...!!

life is bad and also sad...!!

can't even remember when was the last time I was glad

Pain, suffering, misery all have clouded me

I am waiting for a ray from the bright sun

always wondering where the cream has gone from by cream bun :)

Is it the situation which was written for me

or is it some punishment from thee

for something which I did wrong and flee

love..!! sweet love is what I am searching for

I had it with me.. but like a lax fucker I made it sour

luck was never with me, I have known this for long

but still it loves to prove the fact

that boss be aware..!! I am not there to act

feeling too much frustrated and don't know what to do....

I am suffering every minute but all is becuase of me....

we have to redeem our deeds in the same life

but that pain is the sharpest knife...

oh almighty... please relieve me from this pain

give my life a newly born grain...

I have never cried so much as I am .. these days..!!

always searching for the newer ways..

to make things right and happyru

but no success..!! all my tries proved crappy...

evrything seems to be eluding away from me....

my soul is deteriorating day by day

I feel like soon I will reach my D-day....

I am strong but still can't sustain what all is going on

please give me more strength and will as an addon