A sad state of mind...!!

life is bad and also sad...!!

can't even remember when was the last time I was glad

Pain, suffering, misery all have clouded me

I am waiting for a ray from the bright sun

always wondering where the cream has gone from by cream bun :)

Is it the situation which was written for me

or is it some punishment from thee

for something which I did wrong and flee

love..!! sweet love is what I am searching for

I had it with me.. but like a lax fucker I made it sour

luck was never with me, I have known this for long

but still it loves to prove the fact

that boss be aware..!! I am not there to act

feeling too much frustrated and don't know what to do....

I am suffering every minute but all is becuase of me....

we have to redeem our deeds in the same life

but that pain is the sharpest knife...

oh almighty... please relieve me from this pain

give my life a newly born grain...

I have never cried so much as I am .. these days..!!

always searching for the newer ways..

to make things right and happyru

but no success..!! all my tries proved crappy...

evrything seems to be eluding away from me....

my soul is deteriorating day by day

I feel like soon I will reach my D-day....

I am strong but still can't sustain what all is going on

please give me more strength and will as an addon