My Inner Self

I live in a world of desires and unending fires....
Is it my fate or I can actually cut through these wires.....?

There is something inside me which makes me feel the feelings...
I do both the work.... the burns and the healings

Sometimes the door of my world opens up
Those delicate moments make me vulnerable...
I tend to be alone as the situation is unstable

It makes me think sometimes
Is that world also round ?
Does it also has a sky and a ground ?

Because some day I would love to stretch my arms and fly
Then I wonder who will save me from the eagles and lightnings
Am I a freak, or am I just too weak....

But then, who should I let into this world of mine
Do I get only one chance or is there scope for mistakes ?
Is it possible to keep eating the wrong cakes ?

When is eventually a destruction of this world destined?
Would that create a new me.. or would be a just a new picture pinned ?

Does the real self changes ever?
or is it just too clever !!
to fool us and create illusions
and nothing changes with the new fusions....

There is always light at the other end of the tunnel......

There is always light at the other end of the tunnel……
Problems in life…. A very sharp knife…
Most people think.. it’s a crappy life

Deep emotions… Extreme frustration
But still superficial consideration…

Responsibilities, confusion, obligations…
Are all life’s ramifications…

There is no one who is happy from the core…
Some have less problems and some have more…

Some blame others some blame themselves
But very few go deeper into their mind’s shelves

Is there a way…. That all the problems go away…
I still await that kind of a day…….

As that would make me feel alive…..!!!!
Some of us give up.. some of us battle…
But there are people like me who always believe….
There is always light at the other end of the tunnel…
It’s just the walk.. which is hard to survive……!!!!!

The mystery of dreams..!!

I always wonder about my dreams and the associated weird themes

I see things which really do not exist

is there a significance ? God throw some light and hold my wirst

uncomplicate the cobwebs , let me open my fists.

someone somebody will bring the light of fortune

will it happen soon? or will it be the end

struggle and pain in life make us bend, is there any way to amend

I see people, I see darkness, I see pain

Why not happiness ? even if I try.. its all in vain

The unconscious mind is the greatest explorer

but the conscious makes us to forget the expedition

I sometimes try to recollect, but the doubt remains

is this correct? and I have nobody to explain

apprehension and fear is sitting down at the base

happiness and optimism is only the superficial phase

A hole at the bottom will do the trick

it will drain out the bad and sick

To make that hole, I have to delve down deeper and deeper

at this moment I wish I was a creeper

people say that dreams are unfulfilled desires

but its hard to straigthen those strangled wires

I beleive dreams are the windows of the inner house

always giving you the opportuinities to browse

differnt parts of your life and the soul

hence to understand your ultimate goal.

A day will come when I will understand

and that will give me a reason to rise and stand.

A sad state of mind...!!

life is bad and also sad...!!

can't even remember when was the last time I was glad

Pain, suffering, misery all have clouded me

I am waiting for a ray from the bright sun

always wondering where the cream has gone from by cream bun :)

Is it the situation which was written for me

or is it some punishment from thee

for something which I did wrong and flee

love..!! sweet love is what I am searching for

I had it with me.. but like a lax fucker I made it sour

luck was never with me, I have known this for long

but still it loves to prove the fact

that boss be aware..!! I am not there to act

feeling too much frustrated and don't know what to do....

I am suffering every minute but all is becuase of me....

we have to redeem our deeds in the same life

but that pain is the sharpest knife...

oh almighty... please relieve me from this pain

give my life a newly born grain...

I have never cried so much as I am .. these days..!!

always searching for the newer ways..

to make things right and happyru

but no success..!! all my tries proved crappy...

evrything seems to be eluding away from me....

my soul is deteriorating day by day

I feel like soon I will reach my D-day....

I am strong but still can't sustain what all is going on

please give me more strength and will as an addon